A Day in the Life...

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Which is by the way the most excellent radio station available anywhere...

I will indeed need to check out these bands since they seemed to playing to accentuate my current emotive state:

10:44 Sparklehorse Gold Day It's A Wonderful Life Capitol

10:39 Earlimart It's Okay To Think About Ending Treble & Tremble Palm Pictures

10:35 Jay Farrar Doesn't Have To Be This Way Stone, Steel & Bright Lights Transmit Sound/Artemis


An interesting day in the life yesterday...
Or rather, to more correctly state, a day in the "life situation"...which seemed almost too much, and perhaps may have been so out there that it opened me up to realizing that it simply was a "life situation"...not "life".

As the moon moved into the penumbra, my personal relationship began to change rapidly through heated conversation of selfishness and a complete misunderstanding or lack of willingness to understand that on the path, I simply must have time to myself, regardless of its convenience for someone else.

I went home and took in the lunar transformation while musing over its timing. The phone rang, and suddenly I was made aware that we had a new addition to the family - a baby alpaca was born during the beginning phase of the eclipse, brown with a white face. We will be naming her Luna or something to that effect in honor of her timing coming into this world. If it's a "her" at all...if it turns out to be a "him", then I'm sure we'll find a name suitable, or perhaps he'll have to live with "Luna" and be a metrosexual alpaca.

As the umbral shadow of earth turned the moon to a creme brulee and then a burnt orange not unlike that on a sporty little coupe I see driving around the island every so often, I was on my way down to the ferry dock to say goodbye, a selfless act to give closure to the one that decided our relationship's fate. A relationship being redefined is all I asked, and a relationship defined as null and void, without offer of friendship, is what I received.

And so it goes.
As it were, I was ready for some time alone. I got it in the most paradoxial of places, a socially packed theatre where no one socializes since they're watching the film. "Garden State" was just what I needed, perhaps, because it made me feel, but also helped me detach. Funny and emotional and stupid and genius at the same time.

I went home to the penumbra just beginning to leave the moon, and fell asleep as the moon regained its full reflectance and luminance.

The evening's events summed up in simplicity...
Shadowed moon, transition and birth...
Blood moon, ending, independance - lonely but clearly not alone.
Shadowed mooon, sleep and clarity.

Another transition, and more clarity...ironic, since it's been such a foggy morning, mentally, physically, emotionally - perhaps the clarity is happening on a higher level of Being. Funny that it was a dense foggy drive into town this morning too.

She came to say hello and get a hug this morning. To drop off belongings and pick up some of her own.

Outtro in D Minor may be fitting now, but I simply can't remember the words.