What we may not say speaks more than what we shout

I've been rather silent lately.
Introspective is likely what most people would call it...from the outside.
I haven't connected with friends much...lost touch with many that I would rather be very close to in mind and heart...
There is reason. No excuses, but reason most definitely.

A transformation of this nature has not beset itself upon me in this lifetime prior to this moment.

I remember hearing once that I have quite the personality...but my person itself is not as desirable by some - I tend to disappear on people a lot, getting close, then pulling away. It's not for lack of commitment in relationship or friendship. It's simply due to me going into my head, getting lost a bit in the world, and not being able to surface for a while without a bit of help.

Recently, there have been some very strong forces pulling me into my head...the thing is, my mind is not the place that these forces are pulling from, or to. It's my "big S" Self, the higher light being that resides in and around...

I've been honored with the invitation to go through great ceremony, by someone of very high regard, high status, high spirit. Not to place the person on a pedestal - I've learned my lesson on that in recent years. But to not give credit where credit is due would be wrong.
To go through such ceremonies, to be granted such status in a greater world family, too be potentially granted such titles which are so rarely bestowed upon one of my lineage...it will be a transformation, an education, an evolution of mind and spirit and self.

My personality won't change, I hope. But my person will. My Self will. My Spirit is already there...it's now time for the rest of me to follow suit.